If my thoughts had a group chat.

 I’m sitting in class, pretending to listen.

But actually, my mind is somewhere else entirely—deep inside a group chat that no one else can see.

Then suddenly someone says FOCUS STUDY LISTEN

Then i go back to the chat in my mind.

It’s loud in there. Chaotic, messy, weirdly familiar.
It’s the one place where all versions of me talk at once.
Not out loud, of course. But inside my head, all day.

This group chat doesn’t have a name, but it might as well be called “Brain Drama, 24/7.”

One moment, I’m thinking about my to-do list.
Next second? Imagining what it’d be like to run away to a tiny café in Italy with zero responsibilities and perfect croissants.

And in between all that, someone in the chat who i just HATE. decides it’s the perfect time to remind me of that one embarrassing thing I did four years ago. Because why not?

It’s not organized.
No one asks for permission before they speak.
There’s no admin. No rules. Just noise.

A part of me wants to work hard, do better, prove myself.
Another part whispers, “Why bother? You’ll mess it up anyway.”

One side pushes me to keep going.
Another side says, “Take a nap. Or maybe cry. Or both.”

They argue. I freeze.
People around me think I’m zoning out. My friends say where’s your attention, clap in front of my face and wake me up.

I’m stuck in a glitchy mental group chat, trying to figure out which voice is worth listening to today. 

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if I could hit "mute."

Just for a minute.
Just to feel quiet inside—not empty, just… peaceful.

But then again, maybe I don’t want silence.

Maybe these voices, as annoying and contradictory as they are, are what make me me.

The overthinker.
The dreamer.
The planner.
The feeler.
The part of me that still believes in magic even on a boring Tuesday.

They clash, sure. But they also keep me alive.
Complicated. Creative. Real.

So no, I don’t want to leave the group chat.
I just want to be better at choosing which message to reply to.

And maybe, on the days when everything gets too loud—
I’ll just type a single thing into the chat:
“Hey. Let’s breathe.”

Ever feel like your brain has its own group chat too?
Yeah. Same. Welcome to the club.

I’m stuck in a glitchy mental group chat, trying to figure out which voice is worth listening to today. But after all i am just thankful of listening to the voice telling me to focus and keep going, not the voice saying     “Let’s just scroll forever.”

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